Apurva Nemlekar Letter

Please don’t tell me you know how I feel

My dear self,

I know today it wasn’t easy for you … but please …Please don’t tell me you know how I feel,
Unless you accept that pappa and bhai are no more with us ,
Please don’t tell my broken heart will heal,
Because that is just not true,
Please don’t tell me my pappa & bhai is in a better place,
Though it is true, I want them here with me,
Don’t tell me someday I’ll hear their voices, & see their faces,
Beyond today I cannot see,
Don’t tell me it is time to move on,
Because I cannot,
Don’t tell me to face the fact they are gone,
Because denial is something I can’t stop,
Don’t tell me to be thankful for the time I had,
Because I wanted more
Don’t tell me when I am my old self you will be glad, I’ll never be as I was before,
What you can tell me is you will be here for me,
That you will listen when I talk about pappa & bhai,
You can share with me my precious memories,
You can even cry with me for a while And please don’t hesitate to say their name, Because it is something I long to hear everyday, my dear self please realize that I can never be the same, But if you stand by me, you may like the new person I become someday.
Love,